reality

As i approach the ending, i find it very difficult to accept my realities.   So many simple task are either impossible to do now or take so much effort.   Lifting my leg up to the curb scares me, as i easily lose my balance, so most of the time i walk in the street.  Pouring a cup of coffee is a struggle because i do not feel i can hold the pot.   All my photography idea's are canceled because it is so difficult for me to get around.   Who i am today is not who i was just a year ago.   If things continue at this rate, my limited desire to live will be completely nil very soon.