Every time i watch the sun going down, the color of the world fading into black, i'm reminded that it's just another day gone without my SADDI. Another walk missed. Another cuddle not happening. Another day where i'm not barked at when i come home from work or even if i briefly stepped out just to get the mail. i have never been able to truly express or find the word to say how much i miss SADDI. An hour never passes where a memory doesn't entered my thoughts ... a memory that brings a tear or a smile ... or both. The impact SADDI made to my life ... especially my heart ... cannot be expressed in simple words. i've tried. i truly want to be able to so people will know SADDI. Maybe not like i did, in the lonely life we shared, but in just the way she saved me from the lonely life we shared. i don't want people to know about my sadness (i'll deal with that alone), i want people to have faith that it is possible to find someone who can totally bring a positive change to a life that was lost and without meaning ... that's SADDI to me. Though she is not physically with me now, SADDI is with me, guiding me, inspiring me and when i feel that i can't go on ... i remember how strong and brave SADDI was (especially in those last days) and i get out of my self pity to move forward. And do what for the world, as small as my piece might be, what SADDI did for me ... create a positive change.
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