Actor
April 10, 1932 - July 10, 2015
Squirrel Friends
Our backyard was quite popular this morning after i shared some sunflower seeds and bread with our neighbors. At one time i counted 7 squirrels enjoying the treats.
This is Tripod, our very special and friendly neighbor.
She (we think) got her name because she only has three pws
She will come up on the porch, when we're outside,
and yell at us until we get her some food.
Vive La Paris
On Friday, November 13,
in Paris France,
terrorist killed over 150 in several attacks
on the city of love.
i question this world.
Where is the compassion?
Where is the hope?
When will it end?
World Kindness Day
but seriously, shouldn't it be honored EVERYDAY.
By EVERYONE.
To EVERYONE.
What an glorious world it would truly be.
i miss you so much SADDI
On a crisp Saturday afternoon, Devon and i walked up to the local school, where they were having an open house/craft sale. At one of the tables, someone had made a hat that looked like SADDI ears. It was so cute, i really wanted it, but i wasn't going to pay $65.00. We then went home and took SADDI for a long family walk.
On following Monday i came home from work and Devon had taken one of his black sweatshirts and made me a much better hat, that SADDI was modeling for me.
Cuddling
i detest being cold,
SADDI thrived in it.
i love to walk in the rain,
it was always a struggle to get SADDI
outside when it was raining.
One thing we could always agree on ...
cuddling.
Wake Up
Growing up in Portland, no night after midnight, or a Saturday night wrestling show, was complete without a commercial ( often repeated several times ) from retailer Tom Peterson. Cheesy. Tom act like he was knocking on the TV screen, saying; "wake up, wake up to a happy day". It became so popular, they made alarm clocks that woke you up to that slogan. After buying a bed from Tom Peterson's, i was given one of the alarm clocks and it never failed when the alarm went off at 6am, SADDI barked loudly, believing it was someone in our room. i never over slept thanks to the Tom Peterson alarm clock and SADDI's barking.
D E A T H
All my life, as long as i can remember, i have had an obsession with my own death. There have been three attempts at suicide and many thoughts of it as well.
My beliefs in suicide changed after seeing the 1998 movie with Robin Williams ...
And especially after the 2009 death of SADDI.
i want to believe there is something more after visiting hours on this earth are over, but as i near death, with my age and health, i'm beginning to believe there is nothing more. Just darkness and silence.
i am not a religious person, so i don't believe in a heaven. i want to comfort myself into believing that after i am gone, i will be reunited with SADDI forever.
What i do know for sure, is that i will not be buried in the ground. Along with SADDI's ashes, i will be cremated and our ashes will be mixed with wild flower seeds and spread in an out of the way trail, where we will create beauty ... as i believe our bond to be.
i have days when i am ready to fall asleep, never to awake again. And i have days when i want more ... need to accomplish more ... a desire to experience more.
When i do die, i know i will not be missed. My family betrayed me years ago and left my life. Devon will move on. And friends ... what friends? If anything, i will hope i left behind a positive message and people will always smile thinking SADDI and i are together again
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