S A D D I
i have never been one to spend long hours sleeping, but with SADDI cuddled against me, i would lay in bed and watch her sleep. i especially enjoyed watching her dream. SADDI would have a soft high pitched bark, her eyes flickering and her paws twitching as though she was running. i always wondered what her dreams were. After a while of quietly watching her, SADDI must have felt me and she'd wake up. With her head still resting on the pill-low, she would just look at me, as if saying 'stop watching me'. And then she'd roll over and go back to sleep.
Raccoon Talking to Herself
i wonder if they have treats for me.
i’ll wait here,
looking adorable,
until they notice me.
Oh i can’t wait anymore,
i’ll see if i can open the sliding door myself
and look for snacks.
and look for snacks.
a return to Alki
The past few months, i have not had the energy to do basic things that i had always done without thought. i stored away my best friend, my camera, not knowing if i would ever pick it up again. Numerous doctor appointments, dieting, limited exercising and really trying to stay away from a pity party. Slowly i watched my health take a positive turn, though there is still much to be concerned about. i may not see the light at the end of the tunnel, at least i am still looking for it.
So on this sunny but chilly October first, i dusted off my camera and headed to Alki beach, where i hadn't been all summer. It was a struggle as i barely was able to do less than half of the two and a half mile loop i had done regularly. But i could breath, enjoying the salt water air.
i have no clue what will come with tomorrow, but for now, i have today. And i will do what i can to add a few more tomorrow's. So i am returning to my self imposed isolation to concentrate on bettering myself ... physically, mentally and especially emotionally.
3:15am Feeding
Someone is aware of my lack of sleep schedule. No matter what time i go to bed, i always wake up before 3am and can't go back to sleep. This morning, when i looked out into the dark backyard, i saw something strange against the back sliding glass door. It wasn't moving and wasn't a reflection of the indoor light. No, it was one of our spoiled raccoon friends leaning up against the door waiting for treats. Five handfuls of popcorn later, i guess she had her fill, because she strolled into the night to her resting place. i only gave her a handful at a time and each time she finished, she would stand on her back legs looking into the house, waiting for me. It's bad enough with just one raccoon, but we're feeding two families who stop by nightly. But they're so cute, how can you say no.
S A D D I
Remembering our autumn walks. We were lucky to live on a long street with many tall trees that always had leaves dancing to the ground. SADDI enjoyed hearing the leaves crunching under her feet or having me kick a pile of leaves at her so she could playfully try to catch them. The cooler autumn days seemed to be SADDI's favorite. Especially if she was wearing one of her special shirts during our walks. So we took many long walks during the autumn season ... unless it was raining.
Raccoon and Possum Friend
After our delicious lunch at Crab Pot yesterday, we brought home some leftovers for our nightly visitors. Potatoes, small corn on the cob and my bread bowl from the calm chowder. It was a very popular treat for our raccoon and possum friends. So much so, they put away their differences and dined together. Very little nastiness. Let’s see how long that last.
Strong Women
Greta Thunberg ~ Dr. Jane Goodall ~ Janelle Monae
Strong women lift others,
not push them down
S A D D I
The cruelty of time, stealing away, far too soon, those who have the greatest positive impact upon our lives. Those who are our best teachers for how one should be ... to others and ourselves. While ugly people, like myself, are left to stay in a world that is rarely kind or compassionate. i was briefly blessed (13.5) with someone who taught and guided me to where i needed to be. And daily, i was still learning. It wasn't until midway in our journey that i realized the impact SADDI was making in my life and heart. But when SADDI was taken from me, not only did my heart shatter, but so did my hope for the future. i've allowed the negatives of the world to influence me. In doing so, i was betraying everything SADDI gave to me. So my only option was to distance myself from what some consider "reality" and live in my truths. i'll find myself lonely, but it's better than find myself living a lie, just to please others. Time if cruel, but i just remember that one day SADDI and i will be reunited and time will be endless.
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