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I miss you so very much SADDI

People have moved on with their grief and support over SADDI's death on August 9, 2009, but it is still very much with me every moment of each day. I cannot step out of my depression and start dancing around in enjoyment of life as many want me to do. Don't "wallow" in your depression I was told by someone who should know better. Why? Am I not allowed to feel my emotions? Excuse me, but the love of my life, my baby girl, died in my arms, should I not be depressed? Should I not feel an overwhelming emotion of sadness over SADDI's death? Of course I am honored and blessed to have 13 1/2 very special years with her, but I want and need more. I am just shocked at how cruel people can be in what they say or how they believe I should be feeling. People have moved on with their lives, but a huge piece of my own life was taken from me, please allow me to feel that emptiness. Please allow me my emotions. I miss SADDI. I love her so very much. To not have her actually here is so difficult for me to accept and handle. SADDI will forever be my lives inspiration, but having her here always made me feel safe, protected and so loved. People don't understand because they have not experienced the beautiful love in their own life that SADDI and I share. All I can do is distance myself from those who thrust their careless comments at me and focus on honoring SADDI's life and looking forward to the day when I am finally and happily reunited with her.