Winter on Alki Beach
It was maybe 45* with a lite wind
i was doing okay
Until i saw these people
Then i was freezing
Neighborhood Waterfall part two
After a massive winter blast of snow and then heavy rains overnight,
the park across the street needed to drain
SAISAR unlimited foundation
Death ... it is a fact of life. It cannot be avoided. But in-between the time you are born until the day you close your eyes for the final time, living with a purpose should be your purpose.
We never know for certain the amount of time we will have within this life, so it is true, every moment counts. Some will live a long life, and when they are gone, so is the memory of them. Others have been given a short amount of time and their effect is strongly felt long after their last breath. Some will know they made a difference in life while living, others will never know their impact. And does it truly matter either way? For to live a life trying to be acknowledged will limit you on what you truly could achieve. To live a life without a concern of how you are impacting others and just using your energy to impact others, without seeking praise for yourself, the greater pride you will achieve.
i doubt when Shakespeare sat down and wrote Romeo and Juliet, he wasn't thinking that he hoped it would still reach people hundreds of years later. When Sally Ride became the first American woman in space, i'm confident in believing that wasn't in her mindset, but enjoying the ride and knowing the work she would be doing in space will benefit others upon earth. Congresswoman Barbara Jordan didn't run for congress to become the first black woman elected in the south, she ran because she knew she had a mission to make a difference for others after her.
When i was younger, i always had the daydream of being rich and famous. And then i met someone who completely altered my thinking. Without saying a word, she taught me how to be a better human. She taught me to love others, as well as myself. She taught me to appreciate the simple things that life has to offer. And to think at the moment you picked me to share her short life, i was actually hesitate. Her name is SADDI, and though in earth form she was a dog, she truly was so much more. Not just to me, but to those she connected with.
It took me too many years to realize my calling upon this earth within the time frame i have been given, but however much time that i do have, i am fully devoted to honoring SADDI. i want no praise or attention for myself. All of it, deservingly so, belongs to SADDI.
i may be the one fulfilling the mission for the SAISAR unlimited foundation, but it will always be SADDI's image and spirit that will guide me. And when i am gone, i only hope that the mission of the foundation will continue by others for SADDI.
The last voice SADDI heard before she was taken from me, was mine. And the last words she heard were ... "i love you so much SADDI. Thank you". And then she was gone. Everyday since she has been gone, i say out loud that i love and miss her so very much. Where ever we go after this life, i only hope SADDI is able to hear me.
S A D D I
Thinking a lot about SADDI today. SADDI always loved the snow, she'd go crazy in it. But our last winter together, she had enough after the third heavy winter blast. Normally i would beg her to go home so i could feel my fingers again. But all she wanted to do was walk and play. By the time we had the third major snow fall in the winter of 2009, all she wanted to do was rush outside to go to the bathroom and rush back in to be wrapped in a blanket. The snow drifts were about 3 feet high, when her would start to go to the bathroom, slowly you would see her sinking into the snow.
S A D D I
SADDI visited me in my dreams last night.
We were sitting at a large round table having dinner with people who have betrayed me through my life. SADDI was sitting on my lap. As usual, her body press tightly against mine. i could smell her fur. Her soft warm fur between my fingers as i rubbed her chest. Now and then she gave me kisses as i listened to all these people talking badly about me.
It just reminded me how safe i always felt with SADDI ...
even during the darkest days.
S A D D I
Though we lived a fairly uneventful life together for 13.5 years, i cherish my memories of SADDI so very much. SADDI was there for me when my family disowned me. SADDI was there for when an ex physically and emotionally abused me. SADDI was there for me when i lost my job and felt hopeless. SADDI was there when we welcomed Devon Yan into our hearts. i truly wish i was with SADDI now, but at the very least, i hope she knows just how much i love her. How much i miss her. How much i need us.
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