"awakening to the sun shining on my face, passing through the tree's and curtain. sunday, just another day on this journey through life. awakening and my very first thought is of the love that i miss so much. tears quietly falling down my face, no one hears them, no one see's them, some believing i shouldn't even have them anymore. awakening to the reality that people change, that even the best of friends are not always going to be the friends i need. releasing too much from this life. awakening to the soft warm blanket my husband covered me with after i fell asleep on the sofa again. not ready to get up, but needing that fresh cup of hot coffee to give a boost to my sunday morning. awakening to the reminders of what still needs to be done, but knowing on this day it will be set aside until tomorrow. somedays there just needs to be that escape from too many realities and embrace ones selfish sinful pleasures and unhealthy desires. awakening, remembering, struggling, smiling, crying, feeling and just trying to be what is left inside of me. i'll listen to the birds singing as they munch on the seeds i left out for them. i'll watch the bright colorful flowers and thick green grass grow. i'll acknowledge that life moves on, though i wont fully accept it. for no matter the amount of time that passes, and already it has been too much, awakening to each new day without the love, laughter, friendship and beauty, will never fully be a true life again. awakening and trying each day to remember what it feels like to live again."
ric berrong
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