Devon was invited to join 'friends' at the last minute on their boat. Earlier in the day we had gone shopping to buy items for a special 4th of July dinner. At first he said he didn't want to go, then his 'friend' invited me, but because of my cast and some serious leakage from my foot, i'm really not able to go or do anything. But i tried to get him to go, even though he has been gone so much lately (even on my birthday) because i feel i am letting him down and holding him back. It hurts so much, but i'll cry alone. The experience of seeing the fireworks on a boat has always been a dream of mine ... i wont take it away from him. His family in China is making him go to Los Angeles to meet his mom's cousins and even though we are just a few days away from his interview for immigration status, he'll be gone for about a week. Devon has never been to LA, so i am not sure how he is going to be a tour guide for these people he barely knows. But his family doesn't care. It's strange, ever since we've gotten married, i feel so alone.
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