Devon just left and honestly i am really scared about being home alone with my current condition. But this trip was planned several weeks ago and it is giving him a chance to go to Chicago (something i'm not able to do for him).
Stupid silly simple things i am unable to do for myself, like get a new tube of tooth paste from below the sink. i just hope i remembered everything i will be needing in the week he will be gone.
Devon has been wonderful in handling so many things around the house since i came back, normal things i would do without even thinking about, things that he would have taken for granted that i did. Last night i wanted to make a special dinner for us but i wasn't strong enough to stay standing on one foot, so Devon made it all with some guidance from me on the sofa. Devon makes noodles or warms up soup, his skills in the kitchen. But dinner turned out really good.
Devon didn't want to go on this trip from the beginning, but since he isn't working they kinda made him feel guilty that everyone else in the group works and he doesn't. (i wont have anything to do with the PrideAsia group as it seems more ego driven and less community). With my current situation, Devon was concerned about leaving me home alone. And honestly, i'm worried to, but i tried to assure him i will be fine.
As he walked out the door, i could hear SADDI crying and walking through the house as she did. Damn, i miss her so much.
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