Devon came home the next day, still acting a little moody. But he had taken care of everything that i had on a list for him, since i am currently sidelined recovering from my recent amputation.
i tried talking to him, but he still wanted to fight. i just had to remind that i didn't say anything and he blew up at me. He finally listened and settled down.
i just had to remind him that i know and understand how stressed he gets when he nears fashion shows. i've been dealing with this for 5 years, since he started DEVONATION. i understand it. i fully respect the hard work and long late hours he puts himself through. He gets stressed. And i am the only one around him that does completely understands, but i am also the only one he releases that stress onto. It's unfair to me. It hurts me. It hurts us.
Devon will never come out and apologize, just a hug and a more relaxed attitude after he listens. i am, and have always been, a very sensitive person. After the abuse, physical and emotional, i receive from a past relationship and the betrayal from my entire family, i am very fragile and not every trusting.
Damnit, i love Devon and i will fight for this relationship that i fully believe in within my heart and soul. Sure he might get moody and say some very hurtful things now and then, but i know he loves me. Devon has stayed with me despite my failings and issues with my health. No one, other than SADDI, ever has.
This isn't the life i want for myself or Devon. When my leg heals and i get my new leg, look out world. Devon and i are on our way.
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