S A D D I

i had that dream again, the one i have had numerous times in the past 8 years since SADDI has been gone. In the dream, someone takes SADDI and i see myself searching everywhere yelling her name. Like before, i woke myself up calling out SADDI's name with tears in my eyes.

This month, on my birthday, it will be 19 years since my entire family betrayed me and left my life because i am gay. Rarely do i think of them. But an hour never passes that a thought, a smile, a tear, a precious simple memory of SADDI passes through me.