Today is Best Friend Day and it is also a day where suicide is at the top of the news headlines. So i have my story to share.
It was New Years eve 2001. It had been a few years since my family disowned me after i came out. A couple of months earlier i found the courage to end a 4 year abusive relationship. And friendships were only available when they needed a friend. i felt hopeless, alone and deeply depressed. The TV was playing Dick Clark's Rockin Eve, as i laid on the sofa crying while holding a knife. i truly questioned what i had to live for.
And then SADDI walked out of the bed, standing in the doorway looking at me. She walked over and gave me a kiss, then returned to the bedroom. At that moment i realized that everything i had to live for, just gave me a reminder. i felt so foolish.
Everything changed at that moment. After that night, SADDI and i took longer walks. i lost weight. i realized that i didn't need the humans in my life who were only draining me. On May 10, 1996, SADDI rescued me when she chose me to share her life with. SADDI saved me when i felt alone ... but because of her, never was.
SADDI died on August 9, 2009. My heart shattered into a billion pieces. But i knew i had to find a way to honor the life and love of SADDI. And so, the SAISAR unlimited foundation was started. Providing treats, blankets and water to doggies living on the streets with their humans.
And even though it has been nearly 9 year, SADDI still visits me in my dreams. And in the very early dark quiet hours of the morning, i can actually hear SADDI snoring. Physically she is not here, but in her own very special way, i know she is with me. And even though i cry everyday, because i miss her so very much, those tears pass a smile because SADDI gave me so many precious memories.
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