T O D A Y

Everything is changing.

It has to.

After 53 wasted years, i's awake.

I'm willing to understand.

To change.

To be what I should have been.

To do what I should have done.

So much time wasted on what to eat next.

So much time wasted on being lazy.

 

I'm enjoying eating healthy.

Though limited, I enjoy working out.

Feeling the burn inspires me.

Seeing and feeling the results encourages me.

It's a slow process.

But so was the devastation I was doing to myself.

 

Where I want to be wont happen overnight.

Where I have been didn't happen overnight.

I was slowly killing myself.

And I didn't care.

I thought I was happy with food.

Actually it was making me even more depressed.

I see that now.

I feel that now.

 

I believe in myself now.

Maybe I have to do this alone.

I've waited a long time for someone to believe in me.

I waited for myself.

There is no way to have success without me believing in me.

When I find it.

When I feel it.

Others will as well.

Even without them, I will have found me.