THANKFUL

.. For those who care, a quick update. i'm getting around the house a bit better with the use of my walker. i spend many hours on the sofa, but now and then i get myself to the bathroom (just feet away but it takes a few minutes to get there). At least once a day i go to the front door and stand there getting some fresh air. i should stay there longer to air myself out as i wont be able to shower for a month, at least. Washing up is a struggle as i need to keep one hand on the walker for balance. i had my first cast change on Wednesday, to not make a mess in the house it was cut off outside on the front porch. It's been over a week since i have been able to bend my knee, it felt weird and wonderful at the same time. The tech who came over seems pleased by the way it is healing and possibly next weeks cast changing will allow me to have a cast that will not go over my knee and i'll be able to get around easier. i had the tech repeat the follow so Devon could hear it, but he feels by the end of August that i'll a prosthetic and i'll be walking without the aide of my walker or cane. It seems like forever, but i see light at the end of this long three year tunnel. ... Devon has been, and always has been, amazing. Maybe i should have gone to the rehab, though i wouldn't have survived emotionally, Devon has taken on the overwhelming tasks of stupid silly daily things that we all take for granted, don't even think about doing, that right now i just can't. i wanted to make a special dinner for us last night, but i can't stay on my good foot very long, so Devon prepared a delicious meal for us. i'm truly blessed to love him and be loved by him. ... ... ... Right now the hardest part of all this is trying to stay positive as i watch from the sofa life passing by. i'm assured sooner rather than later that i will be back, it's the right now i am struggling with. My emotions are so fragile now, so much so that i am not sure i can watch the last Daily Show with Jon Stewart tonight without being flooded by tears. Maybe i should watch the republican debate for all the laughs it will create? i'd have to sanitized my house after watching Faux Opinion though. ... ... ... i'd like to send out a very special THANK YOU to the amazing nurses at Highline Medical Center (6th floor Birch) who took such good care of me for 12 days, Mike Ashland and Debby Gosik-Cargo and Namiko f or the very special gifts that i shall cherish always. Lastly, our neighbor Anne who is beyond kind all the time and will be checking up with me while Devon is away for a few days at a per-planned conference, he didn't want to go to in the first place, but especially now, but i assured him i will be fine. There are still good people in this world, i feel inspired and encouraged, after being betrayed so often by family and so-called friends. i've rambled on enough. Thank you for the messages, public and private.